No LOA in sight- 82 days and counting

I was thinking of titling this post "broken promises". You see CCAA told my agency I would have it by the end of last week, and it is still not here. Maybe I will hear something soon, but you know what? I'm in it for the long haul. They can draw this out for 3 months , 6 months , a year and I will still be fighting for my son. I will never give up, I won't despair, and I will not be moved.

Disclaimer: The following rant is against the government-not the people of China. My husband is Chinese, my kids are Chinese. I love so many things about the culture.

Here goes:
It seems that there is now even less mercy for China's waiting children, as they have decided not to even process them quickly once they have found families. (They have already have several measures in place making it difficult to place these children) . I'm furious that kids that need medical care are pawns in some kind of political game. They sure have put the money into making Beijing look good to the world for the Olympics. But guess what? The world knows what they do to the Christians, to Falun Gong, to people with political or environmental concerns, and to the unborn. In my son's province, children have been traficked to work in brick factories, pastors and church members have been beaten, murdered or sent to labor camps.

I don't know what kind of shape my son is going to be in by the time they let him come home, physically or emotionally, but I know one thing: he is coming home. I felt God give me a warrior spirit tonight. I'm going to keep praying for my son, in a way that I won't have time to when he comes home. I'm going to keep pouring out myself for my husband and kids. I'm taking better care of my body- I've lost 6 pounds in the last month and I'm going to keep at it.

God is bigger than all of this. He loves this boy more passionately than I do. He has plans for his life that we can't imagine.

I'm putting my money on the Him to win this fight.

Love, Pam